i've just tendered my resignation as a ssc swimmer yesterday morning. 10years being part of the swim team there, i don't want to let go, but there's really nothing left for me to hold on to.so i'm officially a non-club swimmer now. sigh, i feel so "free" everyday now. there's no need to rush from school to the club to train anymore. there's no need to rush home to complete my homework. everything feels so different now. i've so much time. or rather too much time to spare i get pretty complacent sometimes.

yup, and although life was hectic in the past, with training almost everday after school, it really made my life a lot more meaningful because everytime i did a PB in a competition, the satisfaction i would get from it is something i cannot describe in words. on the other hand, everytime i didn't do a PB, i would get really upset(cry, sometimes!) because i really bothered about it.
but now that i'm almost a fully retired swimmer, swimming is one of my lowest priority. and i get this can't-be-bothered feeling when i don't do well. (even if i do PB +20 seconds!). which makes me really sad, not because of the timing, but my attitude. like, why am i so complacent?

no more NAGS. no more ASEAN Cup. no more interclub overseas and local competitions. sigh. i think only when you're a swimmer will you believe that each competition is filled with fun, joy and laughter even though the atmosphere is tense and nervous-y.
sitting together with your swim mates waiting for your event, sharing whatever energy drink we have, museli bars, sleeping mats to rest on, ipods, cardgames,rubiks cube(!), camwhoring and gossiping etc. not forgetting the muggers who will bring their work to do while waiting for their event. HAHA. i'll definitely miss all of that :)

& idk why but i have this sudden urge to hug all my dearest ssc swimmers whom i have grown up with! haha i really miss them a lot. i can see that they are all improving and doing well in sac so woohoo! i'm really happy for them:D
yup and many of them are able to represent singapore now! haha GO THEM! i'll never forget the oloo oloo freaky competition toilet aka slackers' area, the coaches' office and them gym :) i think that if i go on ranting, this post could be sum up to an essay of 9438276252251 words so yea, you get the picture. heehee.

alrite. now back to the present-
i'm joining the inter school biathlon! haha i'm doing the relay with Annette Tan :D she's doing the 5km running and i'm doing the 750m swim in open sea. zomg pressure because she's fast and wants to hit 23minutes! so i, being her relay team partner, cannot possibly pull her down. haha.

btw; i slept from 6pm to 11pm. so yes, in otherwords i just woke up. my sleeping pattern is so weird i swear. yea and got to get started with my chemistry bonding tutorial + GP essay (which my teacher has very kindly allowed me to hand up on monday. i didn't procrasinate!
she just went, "it's alright if you've no time and can't hand in tomorrow. monday is fine..." )
HAHA. so nice. hmmmmmmmmm-